sometimes I wish I was your first love
the first one to hold you heart in the palm of thier hands
the first one to ever make you feel like you were truly a man
the one who you would do anything for
the one who you truly adored
the woman who in your eyes could never do any wrong
the woman who you could make love to all day long
the woman who you could trust all your inner most thoughts with so easily
knowing that your thoughts are safe with me...
i wish i knew you before you built your defenses and your walls
i wish i knew what it is i have to do to get you to open your mind to all
the possibilties we can have
and all the possiblites of what we can truly be....
but that just wishful thinking of a never possible fantasy
because unfortunately
i have you post heartbreak, post lies and betrayal
and now its hard for you to trust your heart to another
and to travel down that road of love again you wont dare.
its harder and harder to get through to you
to honestly get you too see
that your heart is safe with me...
but honestly i cant fault you
as a woman i can honestly sympathize and agree
why it is so hard for you to love so easily.
so as the days go on
I try day by day
to drill small cracks at the titanium brick wall of your heart
one day my effort will pay off and prove to be enough
but until that day
I will continue to selfishly wish..
That it was I,.... who was your first love
