When my mother died I was 9 years old
That's when I learned this world was cold
We all were placed in foster homes
Hardly ever seeing one another only talking on the phone
My sister tried to commit suicide by jumping out a window
When she needed them the most where did all her friends go?
I hated myself and I wanted to die
They sent me to a shrink who only asked me"why?"
I told him that my life wasn't worth living
being stuck in this world of constant giving
he claimed he was concerned about how I felt
Something about a raw deal that I'd been dealt
When I got older I tried to escape
But, freedom was expensive cause I was raped
The rapist said "my life was a lie"
And nobody cared about the tears I cried
I went to the streets looking for love
I found comfort in "Crack" the drug
Sex became a game to me, using it to get what I needed
Alot of Sistas hated me thus calling me "conceited'
Alot of times the devil would insist
:Just end it all and slit your wrist"
Until I learned I had a real soul saver
God was always there for me and he never asked for favors
This was the lesson I had to learn in order to break free
I could never love anyone else if I didn't start with....Me
