hello asIam,
just speechless as u seem to be touching base on self... now learning that he who suppose to be thy father isn't? thy sperm came from another man? if this is the case my heart goes out to thee, and will keep u in thy prayers.. i say continue to talk to the heavenly father and allow him to guide u in the right direction... 21 years on thy earth and now u seem to be at standstill... u can also look at this as a new chapter in thy life? new family maybe? in summary take care of self, and do remeber thy poetic family is here for thee...
