I'll take the blame for the misconceptions we developed of each other
Even as individuals
Simply because we didn't take the time to correct them
Connections made due to lonely teenaged afflictions
Some of the causes lost amongst us being distracted by temporary fixes
Others gone left unknown

Minds wrapped around the ideas that were made up just to impose on what we knew was never real
Out of it born a blessing of new life
Stimulating further dysfunction
And look where we end up

We faught the persecution from not being the same
Until we gave in to the temptation and dared ourselves to be people like everyone else
Temporarily subjugated from what our actions created

All in all getting back to me and I'm not sure where that leaves you
Because unfortunately the subjugation that should have been temporary has become more permenant and I refuse to be any longer

Turmoil and despair
Affliction and defeat

The ultimate definition not defining the truth
Freedom lapsed over choices made to change
When will you decide?

Conflict and reality
Misery and sorrow

The opportunities lost at the door of happiness
When will you be ready
A mirror reflecting the person not the personality though it almost seems as it would

Hope and deliberation
Following conquer
Roads crossed and traveled
Yet the distance covered amounts to nothing
Thus you are still standing in the same place it felt as though you left
What will you do now?

 

and when i can't sleep at night
i fold my pillow in half
tears bursting from my forehead
sweat keeping them hidden
as not to make me look as though
i am
weak
for you
and when i do cry
i am not crying from the lonliness
but rather the feeling that i let you down

and any real woman who's loved
a man should know
when she's the one to blame
but the womanistic intuition is also a poison
casting false blames that she doesn't deserve him

when thats far from true

drifting into the arms of a man
lost
he is nothing more than a distraction
an excuse for me to focus on the illusions
he cast against brick walls

a shadow breaking into my thoughts

a tear that doesn't cry

a motion that never moves

a  mere meddling bar of steel

wedging my thoughts against nothing